SInce We're on the Damned Subject...

'... There are no sequelae to the disease, the patient either recovers completely or dies.'

I guess that's why they made medical text convoluted and extremely complicated. Imagine a patient reading that. Yeah, someone told me that Medicine is '... an extremely respected profession, as soon as you get a Dr. in front of your name, immediately the general public will realise that you have an edge...'

We don't need Freemasons or the Illuminati in the world... All people need to do is dig a little deeper into the medical profession and lo and behold...

Best example is from the Microbiology book. After going on and on about fucken rabies, they restored their reputation by saying this: 'In developed countries, canine rabies has been controlled, so human rabies develops from bites of wild animals (bats, foxes, raccoons and shrubs.)

Did you miss that?

Shrubs. Here's a picture in case you're still not getting it.

I KNEW IT!

Yes, the most controversial scandal that has been unearthed yet... Shrubs have teeth (sharp ones) and they can bite and infect you with a deadly disease... The betrayal of the medical world... WHO'S UNETHICAL NOW?!

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Enough on med ey. It gets you sick. Anyways, what's with the resurgence of Family Guy nowadays? It's like everybody is watching it... What happened to The Simpsons?

Sleepless Nights 32 - Hands Up If You're Drifting Away.

You know these kinda situations. You start out as best of friends then 5-6 years into the future, you look at each other and you realise that: Fuck, you didn't know the bastard after all.

Google search for 'Fuck, you didn't know that bastard'

My point is that people are meant to drift away. It's like a self-preservation mechanism or something; I mean can you fucking imagine living with the same person for a few decades? Sleeping under the same roof, smoking the same joint, eating at the same table. Wait. That reminds me of something. Something vaguely familiar... Something...

GAHHH!!!

Back to the main point. It sucks surely, not being as close as you were. Then again, if that person who you already grew to trust bla bla bla were to do something to fuck up your life, the damage would be so much more fucked up wouldn't it? Dammit, I've lost my train of thought.

*

I've had this thought in my mind for quite awhile now. Looking at our own body, in fact looking into it, it's actually plausible for us to be a cell in a much bigger organism. I mean who are we to say that our fucken RBCs or gametes or lymphocytes aren't in fact thinking that they're just another fully functioning organism? For all I know they could be sitting down, tanni gedegak-ing just like we occasionally do. Maybe they're looking up and seeing what passes as stars and shit and they themselves are thinking that 'Fuck, the universe is a fucken huge place...' when in fact, they're just cells in our bodies. And we might be the same. What if the Milky Way is just some goddamn tissue? If our own cells can be infected with a disease like fucking Plasmodia, then isn't that they're definition of being sick?

*

Is anybody else as obsessed with 'You Only Live Once' as I am? I mean fuck, how awesome can a song get?

Being 19

It just occured to me how utterly awful it is living life as a 19 year old person.

For one, 19 is an odd number, which simply means that its a number that equals that of an undecided nature. There's this constant demon that reminds me that hey, you were 18 last year, you had fun and shit. Now you're 19, the last year of your teenage life. And what are you doing? What the fuck are you doing with your life? 20 is coming, and so is responsibility. See, being 19 is like having a session with a psychiatrist and he asks me to look back and think hard bout my life. So I did.

I realize I'm a fuck up.

Then there's the issue of my teenage life coming to an end. How unfortunate that it's a big thing. I like being a teenager, I get away with a lot of shit. I get free stuff constantly and hell, being young is just fucking awesome. This thought keeps coming to me. This is my last year as a teen and what the fuck am I doing? Fucking wasting it in Egypt.

Heck, when this shit start to invade my mind, everything clicks together... I mean, looking at my first few posts, it seemed so fucking cheesy, disposable even. I'm not even making much fucking sense now.

I guess I'll wake up tomorrow and realise how foolish I've been tonight and laugh it off. Of course I am, it's fucking human nature isn't it. Dammit all.

41 degrees

Why is it so bloody hot... Ah fuck, more migraine then.

Anyways, I actually gained 10 kilos since I arrived in awesome Malaysia and heck, it doesn't bother me. Finally for once I actually got pass the 60 kg barrier.

For the first time in my life - I'm not shitting you on this - I did not go back to Penang. It's a funny feeling really, as if I've just lost something.

I finally understood what people have been saying about times changing and shit. Zip! Before you fucking know it, you've aged two decades. 'These are the times that you have to man up and show to everybody you parents especially that you can take care of yourself. No more fucking around, being an adult and shouldering responsibilities is not, in fact, limited to your age. You can be 12 years old when you become an adult, it all depends on the situation. Your time is now.' Thanks Bu.

Also, for the first time, I find myself with way too much material to work with. There's 3000 pictures from Europe which needs editing and fuck, so far, I've only finished Rome. Okay, I lied, I'm not even done with Rome. Fuck. Damn you Michel Angelo and whatever artists that made those awesome art.

A few days later, there'll be a wedding, then a few days after, back to Egypt. Oh and a test a few days later later. Yeah, life's good.

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'I'm not even kidding.' She stared at him with a glint of annoyance in her eyes.

'I know you're not, and why am I under fire here? I didn't even mock you.' All he wanted was suspense.

'Well, what's your answer then?'

'Who am I to deny you of your love? The only thing I could do right now is acknowledge the fact. Yeah, you love me, now I know that but hey, you can continue loving me and I will say nothing to stop you.' She looked at him, in confusion and a slight tinge of anger started to smear her canvas of emotion. He down the rest of his tea in one gulp, flicked his cigarette and stood up. As he walked away from her, he muttered.

'Don't.'