Sleepless Nights 23 - Know Your Place.

I originally planned to write a short story at this time since I decided not to sleep. Then, quarter way through, I got mail from 1x. It was another reject.

Was I crushed? No, not really, I was disappointed, yes, but far from crushed. It just made me fucking hyper to know that I haven't reach the level where people actually rate my photo as a third rate. So I went through the Critique section (You gotta critique at least 3 photos to have yours posted in there) and saw these really awesome photos which got rejected. So I thought, hell fuck, these people are really into quality control, ya know. Towards the end; okay fine, I got bored I was only halfway through, there was this photo which to me wasn't really great and I didn't find it surprising that it was rejected. Basically what the dude said was:

1. No one can take this picture. Why the fuck is it rejected.

2. I'm a teenager, therefore I am subject to pity. Why the fuck is it rejected.

3. Compared to some pictures that got accepted, mine is way better. Why the fuck is it rejected.

Note: He took a picture of two dogs playing in the snow. Bad quality.

It's funny. Of course no one can take that picture, there can never be an equal photograph under any circumstances. And being a teenager makes you take bad photos? What the fuck man, stop telling the world that teenagers are fuck ups just coz you can't take a little criticism in your barbie doll life. Besides, who are you to judge whose photos are better, yours were oversaturated, not focused and had no detail whatsoever besides the two fucking dogs. Why are you being such a fucking jack-fucking-fuckfinn man?

I've been through that shit, thinking about all the fucken unfairness of the fucken world but when the time comes when I stop and review it, it makes all the fucking sense in the world. How the fuck are you supposed to even progress when you can't stand up and accept the harsh reality of the world? It doesn't revolve around you. Accept it or die in your vanity.

I saw this guys photo which was held up in Screening for a fucking week. Imagine his feelings when it was rejected. I don't see him complaining.

It's not just in photography. Photographers are not all fucken freaks of nature who cut themselves for fun. Well, okay, maybe some are; bipolar even but those are special. Anyway, as I was saying, what the fuck is wrong with shit fucks nowadays. Can't take a hit? You fucking pansy. And every single fucking time, the blame goes away from you. Why? Why can't you just accept the shit that's thrown to you with pride and with the mentality: You fuck me up, I'm gonna fuck you up twice as hard plus ultra sized dildos thrown in. (Not literally)

To err is to be a fucking human. What? You can't bear the thought of making a mistake? Who the fuck do you think you are? God? Heh, it's hilarious thinking that you fuckers are the fastest to get up and preach his word.

See, people are gonna ask me: 'Who pissed you off?'. What the fuck? Isn't it fucking obvious? It's fucking general society? The molding, rotting decrepit mongrels who label themselves as the good guys but behind closed fucking doors, they are the ones fucking polluting the world with the shit they spew out of their fucken pus filled mouths.

It's all the same things. Hate the Jews, fuck the coloured, the Malay Supremecy, You're going to Hell... It all comes down to this: A major fucked up Superiority Complex. Everybody wants to be in power. They crave for it, they'd stab their brothers and sisters to get to it, they'd use the fucking bond of kinship to finally cause a major disturbance and clear the way for their ultimate glory.

Everybody wants to be the good guy.

Know your fucking place.